Sometimes...

The things I wish people knew

Sometimes, I want to be able to be able to cuddle the baby I'm with until they need to feed again.

Sometimes, I want to just lie down and have a nap with them during the day.

Sometimes, I would like to go to bed without having to express milk, or wash bottles, or wash clothes, or pack the dishwasher, or eat, or cry because one of them woke up because when I was feeding the cats.

Sometimes, I miss people.

Sometimes, my whole day can go to hell because one thing goes wrong.

Sometimes, it breaks my heart I can't hold the other one.

Sometimes, I hate these walls.

Sometimes, I have terrible dreams about them, and I wake them to check if they're ok.

Sometimes, when they are screaming, I scream back.

Sometimes, I wish my friends knew what it was like to do this during the day alone and how little time there is to get things done.

Sometimes, it bothers me when people say I'm doing great because sometimes I'm not.

Sometimes, I wish I had a natural birth and could breastfeed.

Sometimes, I don't want advice, just understanding.

 

But....

 

I never regret having them.

I never take smiles for granted.

I never fall asleep without thinking of them.

I always appreciate being able to hold my husband while he sleeps.

I never wish for another life.

Author's Note

As you read, don't ignore the 'sometimes'. It defines the importance of each line.