5. There's a Monster in my KitchenA Chapter by StefanC5 There’s a Monster in my Kitchen What happens inside a person’s head that
enables them to kill? The psychological defect, that takes them beyond basic
human compassion. Beyond empathy and allows them to break that dark taboo.
Murder is a complicated thing and can be motivated by many means, some kill for
financial gain. Others to end a loved one’s suffering, sometimes it’s committed
in self-defense. In some mitigating circumstances perhaps it’s more forgivable
than in others. But to premeditate, to look an innocent victim in the eyes and
watch as you drain the life from them. To be able to take two young girls to
your place of residence and kill them for nothing but the thrill of it. That
takes a deep, dark evil that I hope only dwells in a negligible few.
To my knowledge, the man now heading up the stairs to my flat had done
exactly that. I don’t know why I’d invited him in, what good I expected could
come of it. But here we are, slowly and silently ascending to my hallway. The
place where just a few hours ago: I was mourning the loss of one of his
victims. Screaming and crying, face down on the floor, drowning in grief in the
exact spot he now stood. As I follow him in, he turns to face me. His eyes are
a dark black and the expression on his face displays an emotion that’s somehow
familiar but I cannot put my finger on how or in what way. “Kitchen’s through
there” I murmur, pointing the way. He has uttered not a single word, since he
got here and he silently walks through to the kitchen. I stand and take a deep
breath; my head is full of confusion and a million questions fight for my
attention. Why is he here? What do I do now? Is Sarah still alive? Can I save
her? There is still a large amount of whiskey in my system; it’s affecting my
judgment and pushing and pulling everything in and out of context. So much so
that I’m weirdly almost amused at the overriding thought in my mind, like big
letters in front of my eyes. ‘There’s a monster in my kitchen’. Another deep breath and I walk through the
door. Paul’s already sat down " in my chair. He’s almost doubled over, resting
his forearms on his knees. His head in his hands and he’s staring at the floor
beneath him. I stand directly opposite, leaning on the work surface between the
chopping board and the oven. Looking down on him, a sense of hatred fills every
fiber of my being. He is wearing a black hoodie, the hood still up. His denim
jeans look dirty; I imagine he’s not been home for a few days. I stare at him
and he at the floor for what seems like an eternity. The silence lingers in the
air, I don’t know what to say, and he must have come here for a reason. He must
have something to say so I wait for him. “I…” He breaks off; his voice is shaky
and cracks after one short sound. “I didn’t do it.” He rasps, still staring at
the floor. Motionless. “What?” I ask the question, even though we
both know what he’s referring to. “What didn’t you do?” He looks up, avoiding
eye contact and stares at the wall to my right. I can see the bottom half of
his face, left uncovered by the shadow cast by his hood. His lips and chin are
shaking. I eye the whiskey bottle on the table beside him, imagine crashing it down
onto his head. Knocking him unconscious and calling the police. “I… I know you
will have seen the news.” His voice, quivering is quiet and slow. “The news
about Izzy.” I shut my eyes for a second; her name is hard to hear. Coming from
his mouth, it fills me with an unbridled anger. “But I didn’t do it… I didn’t
kill her.” He’s lying I tell myself, trying to tell me he’s innocent because
he knows that I know. He knows I can link everything together because I was in
the car that day, the only living witness. I’m breathing shallowly, trying to
contain my anger. “You f*****g liar.” Trying and failing. “So what? It’s a
coincidence is it?” He remains silent. “A coincidence that you have her in your
car, she’s going back…” I have to stop for a second; my voice is crumbling with
the emotion. The emotion of reliving that
day. “She’s going back to your place with you and next thing she shows up
dead.” I stare at him, he’s still motionless but for the facial tremors. “What
did you do? What did you do to her?” My voice is inconsistent with anger and
sadness. He looks up, looks me in the eye for the first time. “I didn’t kill
her.” Rage consumes me, I am certain he’s lying. A thirteen-year-old girl is
dead and here is her killer, in front of me trying to save his own skin. Whiskey soaked instinct kicks
in and I turn round to snatch a knife from the knife rack on the worktop. I
take the few steps towards Paul and grab him by the chin, forcing his head back
and place the knife to his neck. I shout loudly “You tell me the f*****g truth
Paul, or so help me God…” I’m trembling, partly due to the rage and partly with
shock at my own actions. He squeals as I grab him and I feel his short sharp
breaths on the back of my hand. “It was Sarah.” He cries almost the instant the
cold metal blade touches the skin on his neck. “It was Sarah… she’s insane.” He’s still lying I think he hasn’t bought the knife act. I know I
don’t have it in me to slit his throat but I need to convince him that I do. I
need the truth. Pressing the knife harder into his neck I whisper to him “Tell
me the truth Paul or this ends really badly for both of us.” “Please” he’s
gasping under the pressure on his windpipe. “Please, I’m telling you the truth.
It was Sarah. She killed Izzy, not me.” My head buzzes with confusion. It’s an
obscure lie to tell, less convincing than telling me he didn’t know what had
happened to Izzy, that she was fine when she left his house that day. Surely
Paul knew how far fetched his words sounded? I step backwards, the knife
now held limply in my hand dangling by my side. I peer at him, why won’t he
tell me the truth? A torrent of despair falls over me. “Why are you saying that?”
I ask wearily. “It’s the truth” Paul leans forward again, his hood has fallen
down during my assault, he rubs his neck. “She’s crazy. She obsesses over me.” I feel weak and pathetic, even
when threatened with a knife this scumbag wasn’t intimidated by me, still lying
to me as if I’d offered him a brew. “We’d seen each other a few times and next
thing, she’s round my place every day” Paul occasionally makes eye contact as
he tells me the story. “I mean, like every
day. She’s non-stop; she’s telling me she loves me. Talking about running
away together, even suicide pacts and s**t.” A horrible thought creeps into my
mind and I interrupt him to ask the question it poses. “How old is she?” Paul
shifts in my chair and sighs. “How old is she Paul?” He looks down again “She said she was sixteen…” The answer is far
from conclusive, I ask again. “How old is she?” “Look, let me finish right. She
comes to me a couple of weeks back and tells me she’s going to organize a
threesome for us because she loves me and wants to make me happy.” My stomach churns. It’s clear Paul is trying
to justify it in his own mind, creating stories to try and replace the actual
memories. He’s clearly feeling guilt but it’s too late for that now. I find
myself asking questions without wanting to, pointlessly asking questions to
which he’ll inevitably lie. “Why would a girl that loves you, that’s obsessed
with you. Want anything to do with you and…” I pause, the ramifications of what
he’s been saying dawn on me. Even in his made up version of events he’s implying
he’s sexually molested that poor, innocent girl. My left fist tightens and my
right hand grips the handle of the knife with a white knuckled intensity, how
much more severe could the reality be? “A thirteen year old girl?” The words fall
out of my mouth, exhausted. Paul shifts again and continues his version of
events, his eyes constantly switching between my face and the knife in my hand.
“She’d seen some…” He stops and considers what he’s about to tell me. “Some images on my computer.” I look up at the
ceiling, suppressing an urge to scream. “I had some images on my computer but
I’d never act on it right… never but
Sarah must have seen them… and just thought I’d like it if she…” Paul stares at
me, his acting is believable and practiced. Like he’d been rehearsing this
speech the whole time he’d been missing. “Anyway I was scared that day, I asked
you to come back with us because I was scared… I knew nothing would happen if
you were there.” I look down again; I can feel that the resentment is spread
across my face. Paul looks alarmed by my expression and continues nervously,
“Izzy didn’t like what Sarah tried to make her do for me, and she wanted to
leave. She tried to run…” He looks down again, he looks uncomfortable almost as
though he himself is in pain “so Sarah pushed her to stop her and Izzy fell and
hit her head… She just stopped moving. She just lay there.” I can feel tears
form in my eyes, I stare at Paul, feeling paralyzed. Whether the story was true
or not made no difference. Izzy was dead and hearing details like that, true or
otherwise, was painful. “Sarah tried shaking her, tried to wake her but…”
“Stop. Stop!” I hold a hand up in a ‘halt’ gesture as I make my demand. I
breathe in, fighting back tears, not wanting to hear anymore. The images Paul
paints in my mind are painful and I worry they’ll haunt me forever. There’s a lasting silence before
I can muster the energy to ask: “where’s Sarah now?” I’m stood like a statue,
tears on my cheeks but my face is expressionless. I’m still holding the knife,
clutching it hard as though it’s a form of life support. “I don’t know. She
disappeared and I’ve been sleeping in my car ever since.” He keeps shifting his
position, his eyes dart around the room, I am certain everything he says is a lie.
“She rings my phone constantly but I haven’t answered. I can’t deal with her.
She’s insane Stewart. I can’t deal with her.” He won’t be honest with me I peer at him as I ask the next
question; looking for any flicker on his features, any tells that he’s lying.
“You killed her too, didn’t you?” He looks straight at me, straight into my
eyes and again, coldly he says, “I haven’t killed anyone.” There’s another long silence
before Paul breaks it by asking nervously. “Have you spoken to the police?” I
smile, the whiskey pulling things out of context again. The question feels
weirdly like a small victory, like he’s having to show his hand. Re-affirming
his guilt. I was beginning to fall for it, starting to believe he might be
innocent but he’s shown himself for who he is again, the veil has slipped. He
is a murderer and a coward and he’s devised a story to tell me so that he might
get away with it. He’s only here to see if I have or if I will be going to the
police. I’m a key witness, without me there’s no one alive that can link him to
Sarah and Izzy’s death. If he can convince me, he’ll get off scot-free and
that’s all he’s interested in.
All I’m interested in is the truth; it’s become an obsession. I ignore
his question and ask my own. “Before Izzy died…” I choose my words carefully,
he needs to think I might believe him if I’m going to be able to trip him up "
get him to contradict his own story. “Why did she try and run away, what did
you do to her?” Paul rubs his eyes with his hands covering his face, when he
removes them his expression is one of stress, his eyes are welling up. For the
smallest of moments in time, I am led to almost feel sorry for him. Guilt has
caught up with him, he knows the evil that lives within him and wants to get
rid of it but he’ll never be able to. The moment is over quickly and any tiny
roots of sympathy that are within me are ripped out and replaced by severe rage
when he utters his next words. “I was… I was naked and Sarah was trying to make
her… touch me.” I feel my body shake with a dangerous cocktail of anger and
despair. The whiskey stirs in me, adding to my hatred and powering my anger. I
lose control, my muscles, my hands and my legs move without seemingly any input
from my brain. I lunge towards him, my left hand grabbing his head. Covering
his mouth, tilting his head upwards. Before I’ve even realized it my right hand
plunges the knife into his stomach. He tries to scream with the pain but my
left hand muffles it, his body writhes and convulses in agony. I can feel his
nervous system panicking, his heart trying to replace the blood he’s losing.
Every part of him; fighting a losing battle. He stares deep into my eyes and I
stare back, I can see images of Izzy’s scared face in them, her lifeless body
and Paul standing naked over it. I’ve stabbed him another three times before my
brain takes over and stops me. The hand I have over his mouth feels the warm
blood he’s now coughing up through his throat, I remove it and stand back. He
fights for life in front of me, his mouth wide open and his eyes strained with
agony. The knife falls from my hand and loudly clatters on the floor. My heart
is racing, I gasp and try to catch my breath but all of the air has gone from
the room. I stand and watch Paul, his very existence ebbing away from him. His
blood is pouring from him, seemingly by the gallon. Soaking into my favorite
chair and dripping onto the laminated kitchen floor. White blobs form in front
of my eyes and my legs go weak. I feel myself begin to fall and just before I
hit the ground, everything goes black. A killer is dead and a new one born in
his place. © 2014 StefanCReviews
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2 Reviews Added on June 5, 2014 Last Updated on June 5, 2014 AuthorStefanCLancashire, United KingdomAboutBackground in film-making/script-writing. Now trying my hand at a novel. Looking for someone to help me with my writing by offering critique and suggestion. more..Writing
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