I am coming to the end of this life of mine. I left my seed
some time ago, and by now the thing that it has become is hunting me. I have
been clever in hiding so far, but I know it is just a matter of time before I
am discovered.
I think I do not mind death so much. I have grown old and feeble and it has
become more and more difficult to sustain myself. This is the natural way of
life and I cannot complain. I have led a full life for a very long time and soon
I will join my esteemed ancestors. At least this is my belief. No one knows
what death is, of course, but to merge with my ancestors is my hope. After all,
we are all of one lineage from adult to child to adult down through the
innumerable eons. We are all of one mind, compiled and united in an ever repeating
progression.
My predecessors recede into the millennia, generation before generation into
the far distant unknown past. They all have dropped their seed as I have done
and have been devoured by the resultant mindless beast, their progeny and my beloved
child, its one desire to engulf my body and mind to become itself, a new
individual of my proud and ancient species.
I sometimes wonder if, as I am absorbed, will I somehow remain conscious of
myself within my offspring? I look deep into my own mind to discover my
ancestors lurking there, but all I find is silence. Perhaps they live in my
subconscious, a part of my mind I cannot reach. I dream my ancestors are within
me, conversing and mingling, hidden somewhere within the complexities of my
subconscious. If this be true I will join them for eternity in happy
reunion.
As I sit here in my hiding place, I hear my child approaching. I fear, but am
too weak to attempt escape. As it overcomes and consumes me what will I feel? I
stare in its direction, anticipating. Now it appears before me, its instinct to
consume is ferocious and irresistible. It leaps and I am caught. I surrender to
its insatiable desire as it begins to absorb my body and my mind. I feel no
pain, only a slow fading of my consciousness.
Now something unexpected is happening. Somehow my old age is receding, I am
becoming younger. I am now regressing into my wild youth, now into my carefree
childhood, now I am a helpless infant.
Now I feel my consciousness collapsing into itself, yet expanding somehow as I
dissolve into the longed-for womb of my venerated ancestors.