Lovely

Devour my flesh in the dance, your design
Send me into shudders that leave me shaking more months
Than I could count; place me in a paradox,
Uproot me from the earthen
To seed me in the sky;
I'll become a constellation,
Spread out in spiral flame
That trails ten sparks and a shimmering cloak
Of crystalline fibers, crafted from the pixels
Of every image ever made of me
Now poised in your possession

This is what we ramble when we don't know what to say
Electric in our lungs but uncharged with any meaning
Because once we're in love all the bulbs in our brain
Blink out one by one as our pupils, like a pond
Ripple outward in rivulet shivers down our spine

It's horribly hollow in my heart sometimes
Even now that I've escaped my insecurities
I miss them now and then, every tepid little twitch
That defined my facsimile last year;
She was smothered in sincerity
While I sustain myself on sin

But I love when you call me lovely
Thread your fingers through my own
And reply that you're all mine
(Even knowing that's a lie)
With a mewl in every moment
And a purr approaching pressures
I suspect I'll soon succumb to
(Even knowing that I have)

Doves can be devils when they dare to divide
An innocent impulse with darker desires
And if I ever deem you demon
I accuse you with affection
For I love to see you lurking
Beneath a smirk or simple smile

Each day I await you, bereft on the beach
I stand on the sand in the sun
Till starlight illumines the ethereal air
And you wash up from your ocean
Spanning shores across the world

For a while we sit in two places together
Talking through seashells and screens
Apart and entangled, blended but brittle
And I sleep at your side while you watch all the waves
So when I wake by the water, you're drowning in dreams

But I love when you call me lovely
Though I'm lost as to why you do.