Coming Out

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How do I put this, this is going to be weird, I just need to say
How many f*****g conversations do I have to start this way?
It feels like I’m ashamed to tell them who I am and I’m not I’m just so scared of how they will act.
When I came out as bi- it wasn’t as hard because with that I just got “well of course”
But with being non-binary it’s a whole other sport
I usually start with “I’m non binary” and wait for their response
I wait for a question mark or merely three full stops
I tell them what it means for me and how I function each day
and at that moment the truth comes out in what they say
some will tell me I’m lying or that that’s can’t be true
and some will say that I’m doing it for attention just like the rest of our generation do
so then it’s up to me
to decide if I go down this path, I’m a fighter for this recognition
so the match usually starts
I can’t speak for everyone but for me this is what it means
For me it means that every day is like the sims custom screen
But not the latest sims where you can customise like s**t
More like early days where you’re stuck with a misfit
I mean sometimes it goes better and they just say “cool, what does that mean again, I’m not sure I remember it all”
And then when I tell them my name they act all surprised, like the only thing that would change is what they can see with their eyes
Pronouns are a hard one, for some reason people take more issue with this that the prior
And yet if they’d got a dogs pronouns wrong they’d change like a tyre
“They/them doesn’t make sense, it grammatically wrong”
Tell that to Shakespeare and the dictionary for one
Where was I going with this, I hardly remember but the point is I don’t want this problem forever
I will always be on sims in my head every morning, and I probably will still cry
But you know it’ll be a little easier if people would help a bit and try

Author's Note

Hope you liked the poem, any reviews are appreciated xx

Reviews

[Shannon]

Hey Quinn.

I want to thank you for sharing. I think the concepts are new fir lots of people and we, as people like nice neat little boxes. Those who break out of the boxes first face the most scrutiny.

The decision making you have to go through every day, deciding if others are worth the effort of being you, was very powerful.

[Quinn]

Thank you so much for your kind words. I am glad I was able to potray how I felt to you.
read moreThank you so much for your kind words. I am glad I was able to potray how I felt to you.

Thank you again.

[Wórdsmíth]

It's very weird thing, i see, in this very capricious world that it just runs on... nothing. Only the state of mind everybody keeps running through. Everybody needs love, peace, and affection, but more importantly, they all need some "apathy" which you can only bring via... kindness and listening to others.

I myself happen to know that listening to others's one of the greatest thing in the world that ain't only helps each other know better, but also helps the person feel a bit stressed-off. We -- the writers -- venting our stress throu' writing, but what 'bout average ones esp. those who are binary/bio/LGBT and whatever or whoever else? They need people's attention which they ain't getting. So i guess, "Coming Out" is quite a poetry that you've come up with.

Looking forward to readin' your work!

[Quinn]

Thank you for your words.

This poem means a lot to me and is very personal for me.