Regret and Thanks

A Story by Starkindler33

When I struggled with my sexual identity and in not being honest with myself I lost a beautiful soul.

I wish I could see you and tell you my regret. All you wanted was my love, it was something I tried to give, but I was so afraid of what I was feeling. I had been taught the the things I were feeling were wrong, and that I would suffer for them, that it was wrong to love you. I denied you. I ran from you and us, I denied who I was and in doing so I hurt you.

It would take me years to finally break free of the guilt placed upon me by my parents. by the church, It would take me years to finally stop fighting a part of me. And though our time together was short and our paths have diverged, I will always cherish the memories we have. I hope that one day I can see you again and tell you how truly sorry I am, and to wish you the best. Thank you for being a part of my life, if you hadn't been, I might have struggled with myself even longer, might still be swimming in the guilt that was programmed in me.