Perfection?

I can't speak
I can't hear
I can't see
I doubt my very existence
I am a nuisance
I fail myself
I fail others
I am a disappointment
I try to cover
But I am a mistake
I book another appointment
"Get better"
"Be happy"
"Give a smile"
"You're putting everyone down"
I've been like this for a while
"Do you even try?"
I try
I fight for myself
I desert my instincts
Be happy?
Do you know what it's like?
Have you been in constant hurt
Do you know my world?
I am sick
I am broken
I am the last one picked
I'm not the favorite
Would people notice if I was gone?
Would they cry for me
Would the sun dawn?
Would the sun rise?
Am I going to fall?
Am I falling?
I put up a wall
You put up a wall
You don't know me
You don't try
You're afraid because I'm not perfect
Maybe I am
I'm not your servant
I'm free
I'm perfect
I'm me