Simplify

i want to simplify myself
to become an easy, abstract thought
something easy to swallow, and easier to love
im tired of this raging, endless depth within me
of reaching further and further to try and find the constellations
that i've been promised i hold inside
instead of blood and bones and marrow and stomach bile
i feel i could be an ocean
but there is no beauty in the monsters beneath my surface
i want to love myself but i don't remember what that feels like
to believe that my body is a temple
instead of a crime scene