Hesitate

I'm too shy for my own good and it seems that no matter how close I feel like I am to getting over it, I never truly make any progress.

How could I possibly flinch when I know that I've come so far?

Is it because of all the memories? Trauma from all the scars?

I can never think of what to do or even what to say.

The insecurities blind my path so I cannot find my way.

What was a golden opportunity now seems to have gone adrift.

The tide binds me forever still as I watch this forming rift.

Afraid that I'm not good enough or that this will surely fail,

I make my fears my reality and I'm not strong enough to prevail.

If I just had a faint glimpse of what it is I'm supposed to do,

I could rise up against myself and not be so terrified of you.

I know how you feel, I've been in your shoes. But patience won my heart.

So now, I pray that your patience remains. That this won't just fall apart.

But how will I go on til then? How can I spare myself more pain?

How do I overcome this doubt and grow to be unafraid?