Who the f**k do you think I am?

Self-destructive?

What does that phrase even

mean?

Self-defeating?

Maybe.

Self-loathing?

Probably.

Selfless?

Hardly.

But self

destructive?

I’d like to think that

that word

is reserved for systems

much

bigger

than myself.

.

The earth may have been

self destructive

when it created us to fill it with

plastic bags,

exhaust and

hatred.

.

A star may have been

self destructive

when it decided to undergo fusion

and inevitably

collapse inward.

.

But me?

Self-loathing,

self-defeating,

and anything but

selfless.

I might be filled with

hate and

collapsing inward.

But self-destructive?

Hah.

I’m not

quite

that important.