Utterly in love

As cheesy as it sounds..I'm utterly in love with him.What reason? There's too much and too little to pinpoint. All I know is that he's the only one my heart looks for,the only one my body craves..it was all so new to me,physical contact made me change. I will be seeing him again,which is a dream come through,I want to hug him and love him because he was meant for me,and me for you know who.It's all so difficult,it's sometimes a heart-breaking dream..long-distance something,with a colombian-oh yes my love preference is revealed. In a relationship,things can go either way.We last or we break up.I am a lasting time of girl..who remained pure until this man appeared. It turns out,as much as I want to physically be with him,I'm just so scared..They say if you don't trust,you can't love.I disagree with all of the above. I believe the heart continue wanting,but our minds discourage us. I can make love with him and we can be great for that one year or he can get what he wants and flee from there.I know he's not that type,we maintained contact throughout our distance..I just want and need to kiss him.Then there are times when I think,I ought to love him and be with him to enjoy all of our time..for with life,our problem is always time.I love him dearly and he does to me..of course he's a man and through other scopes he'd see. Nevertheless,I'm blessed to have up this far,grateful for moments at the mar. I will continue to pray,because it got us a long way..I met the love of my life on January 20th,such an extraordinary day.