AMOR FUERTE

 I always thought I was in love,

 I always thought it was real and true,

 But I never knew how it would be,

Until I meet my colombian friend and enemy.

It makes me tremble inside,

Think of him..in my heart and mind.

It makes me cry in pain,

To beg God to have him,for without I am insane.

So much love,I am afraid,

Unrequited now perhaps,

Unknown of his,the inherent relapse-

Of uncertainty,

But how I love him so,

How deception,tears have made me grow.

How he's still the favorite part of my day,

How I am afraid to read the next messages he has to say.

Walking on thin ice everyday,

He has my heart,but young who likes to play.

I love him so much,til the very end.

He and I are more than lovers and friends.

I say are,because to me we never end,

Forever in my heart you spend.

It hurts so much I hate it,

But I see 8 months and I'm glad we made it.

Every love song,everyday,

Never kissing you again,my biggest fear.

I see myself with no other,

Name on my heart,my body shudders.

He's poison and I'm addicted. I finally understand the quotes in the songs. Dear God and life,this experience is beautiful,painful and interesting...I know nothing more,except that I love him with all my heart.He was it,he was the one,all the fun and tears. He showed me how to share and care.Right from the start he captured and touched my heart. This is why the pain of separation is just too hard. I love him,I really do..maybe one day he could understand and feel the same,that it's not about sex and that we were never a game. But he had the power to make me love him until I felt insane. Yet I kept smiling,every minute of the way. What I'd do to make him stay..but I know he has his freedom,he has his choice,I wish I could wingman with his inner voice. He calms me and soothes me like no other,that a*****e,my lover,friend and brother. Where we will end up,only time will tell..I know we happened,and that's so lucky,I'm blessed. Sometimes I feel that I loved and lose,after the tears and abuse,unsure of whom to choose. But what will be,will always be..it's hurtful,only because I love you darling,you see :*