Longest hours

It's all so slow,

Everything around,

Doing nothing,homeward bound.

Your name,palpitates in my heart,

You chose for us to be apart.

Back to the old life girls and booze,

The only escape is sumberged to snooze.

I knew this would happen one day,

But still..I'm not what more I can say.

The rejection,hurt and pain,

Assured though,your presence was not in vain.

Did anything we have was real?

Or the sex has you drugged,for that there's zeal...

I know there will be better for me,

Wished you and I were meant to be,

But still I love you so much,

Every moment I can..I want to feel your touch.

Desperate for some hope,or to whole your hand,

You'd realize your feelings and long distance we'd withstand.

But I understand you and your life,

I'm not the bad b***h,just a worthy wife.

If you could tell me that you want me and care,

I'd drop my future boyfriend,in a moment-without being scared.

I think you're amazing the way you are,

Surrounded by darkness,but I'd be your shining star.

Life is too unfair because of choice and plan,

Too different people,but so much fun we had,

For me it was magic,was it the same for you?

My a*****e,my devil,my b***h..it was always you.

I sit and think how you make me suffer,

But I imagine you with her or the others,

My words choke,my heart stutters.

I long to speak with you again,to have and to hold,

But I'm dying everyday watching this situation unfold.