Let go

I try to let us go,but I really cant. I love you so much..it's sad. I will try my best not to be depressed.To learn to let you be.Whether it's happy with her,or somebody else,but me. I will never understand why we met..in my mind,heart and body you crept. My devil,angel,friend and more..the distant,the hurt,the insecurity -it all makes me sore. But I heard my grandmother speaking tonight,about the love of her life.I thought of you and how I would be.Many years from now..retelling to others,your image I see. How there was one man,who came and appeared..he made me doubt myself,he made true love,my biggest fear.But he made me happy,even if it was a short time..he give me inspiration for forever,he ignited me for the rest of my life. Never will he know the impact he made.How he left me broken and hurt in the most unbearable state. Was it his love? Was it just lyrics of charm..was his intention just to give me harm? Never will I really know. What I remember is with us..the time never moved slow.I will continue to pray,to have him one day..but sometimes it all feels too hopeless to be. For me it is everything,for you,a memory.But the love of my life in eight months,oh what a felony.We held hands,kissed in the rain..walked on beaches and had long gazes. Everything I had ever want,now he is gone and in my mind he tauts. Maybe he will remember..maybe it will never be enough,but for me he was my love,my faith and trust.But the time had passed,my feelings never did fade,distance brought worry,insecurity gave me pain.Still I dream to cuddle on the bed,we laugh and stare with words left unsaid.My heart is hopeless and the tears flow..I lost direction,I will follow the wind as it will go.My heart has not forgotten,niether did my soul,beautiful memories I have until I become old.

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[KATHY SUE SILLS]

Pact with emotions and a aching longing that cannot be reached!