Afraid of happiness

She is and will always be afraid of love...She will never understand that happiness is more than temporary and that love is real. His feelings will fade,like colour in the rain...-TM

It's half past five in the mourn,

Morning dew,pure dawn.

She sat and thought,

"Love is not just romance."

At that moment,

She thought about life,

Of what was only portrayed to her.

There was only one side you knew-Pain.

Everything else was just foreign.

Nothing could ever be real.

She sat silently,

Wondering if she was crazy,

To believe in love again?

Cause she believed in failed love before...

She had the strong feelings,thought of the lies.

All sentiments blurred,distorted tears in her eyes.

Had hopes of a real love,

'Twas doomed to fail...

She felt happy now,

At the back of her mind with doubt.

Heart on her hand,

but more tragedy,could live without.

Could she be crazy she thought?

To generalize?

To believe each man would be worse!

Worse than the last.

Deception,broken trust common..false pretenses.

She denied herself the wholehearted happiness.

In exchange for misery and misguide,

Masking strong like,insecure,fiery disguise.

So much she could do and wanted to say,

Afraid she'd be place on pedestal,mocked in public display.

Destined to doom,she was aware they'd inevitably fail.

But he made her so happy,

It's been so long,it's been awhile-

To see her think about love all the time.

So she kept hanging on to what they have,

Suffocating inside that she will retort,back to being sad.

Reviews

[Talesha]

Thank you all for your kind words. :)

[Raymond Federle]

To many wonderful line to quote just one. lol Wonderfully done! :)

[Penny]

I can very much relate to the poem, the way your character feels, I have similar feelings of fear, very wierd feeligs. You have described them nicely in your poem. The subtle rhyme, also adds to the feel. And the fact thatiit ends on a happy note completes it. Thanks for sharing.

[♔ CrownedDevil &#..]

Such an emotional write. Nicely written Talesha. :-)

Kaze~ ;-)