No more love

A Poem by Spitzy

How it feels to be told I don't love you

Tick tock tick tock
I think my heart just stopped
The clock on the painted warm beige wall doesn't cease
But my world just crumbled
I'm fairly sure my walls have all just tumbled
My life as I complacently accepted it has ground to a halt with the words "i don't think I love you like that anymore"
You've admitted to everything and nothing your false tears grate my ears like having barbed wire pulled through them
My breath catches, a million questions all of which simultaneously require an answer and fear the answer that will be given.
I see my beating heart ripped out of my gaping chest, bloodily on the table between us crumbling to ashes that will instantaneously not exist.
The years we have spent together flash before my eyes the times you've told me you love me, everyone feels like lies,
I ask if you truly wish to throw away everything we have worked together to build,
On someone undeserving of your love over something so fractious as foibles of fleeting emotions even your say you cannot control,
You know not what you want to do move on, stay, it feels late in the day my eyes hurt from the tears that no longer come,
A cold determination to fight for you and not loose you to Someone I consider no better than a bum.
Let us not end like this throwing everything away, if it helps I will beg you to stay
Try again for us, I didn't see the signs of your malaise,
Do not doubt my love for you it will remain forever strong
But do not assume my complacency is anything other than the folly of youth
Not knowing how much I value you until the jaws of separation stand wide open dripping foul poison from its teeth seething anger and resentment that I didn't realise existed,
Give us one more chance because I love you my dear, I love you.