The Memories

He clutched onto my ankle and pulled me towards him. “Stop kicking me!” he demanded when I almost hit him were it hurts the most. “You look nervous, so this must be your first time,“ he said while taking out a condom. He grabbed my wrist and pinned me down to the floor. I felt blood running down my face from falling and I was very light headed. He kissed my neck and I struggled to get up. He hovered over me, putting his legs on mine so I couldn’t move or escape. “Just be calm, Lace.” he said to me when I tried harder to get him off of me. “Leave me alone!” I begged. He started to lift my shirt over me, exposing my bra. One f my legs got free and I brought me knee up towards me with a lot of force. I nailed him in the groin and he fell off of me.
He held himself in fettle position and I ran right for the door. I unlocked it and ran out. I started crying because I was afraid that Cody was following me. When I was at the end of his street, far from his house, I stopped to catch my breath. I went to take my phone out of my pocket when I remembered that it was still at Cody’s house.
Why was I so stupid? I shouldn’t have gone with him. Now I’m at a place that’s strange to me and I don’t know where to go. I’m guessing that Justin didn’t follow him to his house. I kept walking down the unknown street, thinking about everything that has happened. I didn’t want to go to school if I had to see Cody everyday. “Lacie!” I heard someone yell behind me.
In a panic I started to run at full speed. “Lacie wait!” the voice yelled again. It was closer soi could recognize it now. It’s Justin. I slowed my running into a walk, then stopped at a side bench to catch my breath again. Justin’s jeep then pulled over to the curb. He jumped out and jogged over to me.
“I’ve never seen you run that fast. What happened?” he asked. All the memories ran through my head and I started crying again. I put my knees to my chest on the bench and Justin put his arms around me. It made me jump ad I pulled away. I didn’t want to be touched right now. “What happened in there?” he asked and was obviously worried about me.
“He wanted to take my clothes off and Kelsey didn’t want to see me. He tricked me. She flipped out when she saw me. I’m so sorry for going with him. He said that Kelsey needed to talk to me.” I said. “Your head is bleeding.” he pointed out. “I reached for the door and he pulled me down. I hit my head off the floor.” I said remembering the moment in detail. “Let’s get you out of here.” he said.
I shook my head in agreement and got up. He opened the car door for me and I slid in. He started to drive away and asked, “How did you get out of there?” “He had pinned me to the floor and kissed me everywhere when he started to take my shirt off and showed me the condom that he had. He was going to rape me.” I paused to dismiss that memory and then went on. “He almost got my whole shirt off when I kneed him. I ran out of the door and just kept going until I couldn’t run anymore.”
“We need to tell your mom.” Justin said. “No, we can’t! She’ll get too worried.” I stated and he gave me the ok to keep this from my mother. We arrived at my house and Justin parked on the curb. My mom’s car wasn’t in the driveway, so she was still at work. I unlocked the door and let Justin in. “What are we going to do about school?” I asked. “What about it?” he replied. “I can’t be near him. I get nervous and scared and he might try to…” I trailed off. “Oh, I don’t know, we really should turn him in.” he said. “We can’t. He will come after me. You know, when I was in the car with him, he realized that I was afraid of him. He said that it wasn’t like he was going to kill me or anything, but he might try. He already tried to r-rape me so who knows what he’ll do next. Especially since I hurt him. If I turn him in, what do you think he would do when he got out of where ever he’d be?” I sat on the floor and wrapped my face in my arms and started to cry. I looked up and saw Justin, who looked like he was in a different world.
He sat down next to me, but not very close. I could tell that he was blaming himself for this and I wanted to make him feel happier. I scooted over to his side and laid my head on his shoulder. He looked at me and I looked up at him. “But, I’m here now and I’m ok. We can deal with him when the time comes.” He looked away from me so pulled his face to mine and I kissed his lips softly, hoping he would kiss me back. He did and pulled me onto his lap very gently trying not to hurt me. He held my very close to him which made me instantly feel safe. I love when we were this close and I didn’t want to let go. He broke away from our kiss and had a sad look in his beautiful eyes. “I’m sorry that I couldn’t get there faster.” he said looking guilty, just like I said before, he blames himself.
I hugged him closely resting my chin on his shoulder. “It’s ok Justin. It’s not your fault. I’m fine, see?” I said as I slowly stood up and turned around in a circle like a runway model. He chuckled a bit and stood up next to me. “Are you going to be fine when he’s around?” he asked seriously. “Well, no, but he’s not here now.” I said and pulled him over to the couch. He sat down and I took my spot on his lap. I kissed his cheek and turned on the TV. We watched re-runs of Grey’s Anatomy and watched The Notebook. I cried during the movie, but I always did. We cuddled on the couch for what seemed to be hours and I took a small nap and he did too.
When I woke up I saw Justin staring at me. “Hey,” I said as I lifted my hand off of his chest to stretch. “Hey,” he said back sweetly and smiled. I looked down at my hands and realized that I haven’t taken off the ring that Justin had gotten me since I put it on. I smiled as I watched it glimmer in the light and realized that I need to get cleaned up. “I’m going to take a shower, ok? You stay here.” He stood up right after I did and started to follow me. I put a hand on his muscular chest to stop him and said, “Stay here.” I laughed a bit and started my way up the steps. He grabbed my hand and I turned around. “Your going to make me wait down here all alone?” he asked with a look in his eyes that made my legs feel like jello. I couldn’t say no to him. “Fine, you can sit on my bed.” I said and we went upstairs. I grabbed my clothes from my dresser and went into the bathroom. I went to shut the door When Justin’s hand got in the way. “What?” I asked.