Shout

sometimes i just get so damned

angry.

for no reason, or many reasons

every reason, every season

i want to shout to the world

HERE I AM!

but i won't - never will

instead i sit, and i pour

my confessions of soul

onto paper or page

onto screen, or skin

like that could be enough

to contain all that i am

all that i want to be

all that i was

but i can't bring myself to shout

yet sometimes i get so damned

angry.

Reviews

[Chris]

strikes many chords - all quite real

[SpitfireGrrrl]

Thank you!

[Jen Ro]

I love this piece, I can really relate to it. I at times contain my anger until it bursts out of me. Writing helps though. I should really just let it all out more often. As many said below, to just scream and let it seep out.

[SpitfireGrrrl]

Thank you :) I'm going to try it!

[.]

~ i used to scream in person... then i used to scream in words... i wanted to be heard... then i realized that some people are intimidated by volume and harshness... not because of us but because of their own experiences... so, it took me a pretty long time to stop screaming... almost all of my rage has subsided now... how can one be enraged with people who cannot hear another patiently ? ... they are troubled souls... perhaps far more troubled than us...

[SpitfireGrrrl]

They may be - I mean really, is it better to have a wealth of feeling that comes out in the smallest of ways, or no feeling at all that is expressed with ferocity? I feel like there is a ferocious amount of emptiness in some people today.

[.]

~ every human being has feelings... as in... an emotional response to things... over time, the nature of that response evolves... for instance, usually, one who speaks calmly is someone who has been through a process of being engulfed by rage at some point... ~ people seem empty when they become experts at suppressing the experience and expression of emotions... but this is only superficial... or so i think...

[SpitfireGrrrl]

I hope! I am mostly calm - it's just all roiling under the skin. One day, I'll get there - but putting the words down helps so much :)

[.]

~ i was mostly screaming and sometimes calm... then i was mostly calm and sometimes screaming... then i got to calm and rarely screaming... i hope to get to only calm... writing is the only thing that has helped me... :)

[SpitfireGrrrl]

:)

[Holly Mason]

this is really great
let it all out ,hands in the hair tugging at the same time kinda angry!
thank you for sharing

[SpitfireGrrrl]

Thanks!

[Distant horizons]

A good shout and scream is good for the soul. I was once dragged to a new age class by an ex and wasn't really that interested until they said that next weeks class was going to be a primal scream event in the woods in the middle of nowhere. We signed up and when we got there, she told us to let our inner animal out in any form we wished. So after watching a few of the regulars going for it big style, i just thought of work and wnet mental, shouting and swearing at my bosses, who for this event, were taking the form of a nearby tree. I called them every name under the sun and a few made up ones too and kicked and punched the tree. I didn't even notice everyone else had stopped and were standing watching me with jaws dropped. It was brilliant. nd I'm sure the tree understood :-)

[SpitfireGrrrl]

That sounds amazing! I might have to try it ;)

[Distant horizons]

:-)