Mother

Mother

A Poem by SpitfireGrrrl

I hope you aren't disappointed in me
I know I haven't been by much lately...
I want to, oh how I want to.
I just can't do it. I can't make myself
turn left, instead of right.
I was so strong, when I was there
helping, watching, praying
at least that's how it seemed, right?
Yet, the first chance I got to leave
I left.  Knowing that going back
would be so hard. When I'm not there,
you are the way you should be-
in my head, in my memories.
when I'm not there, your laughter
rings in my ears, your eyes sparkle,
you blush like you used to
you are bigger, stronger, more...
everything
When I go back, reality intrudes
I have to make my way to your
bed, talk to you while you lay
still and quiet, eyes a little dull
face crinkled in pain, or confusion,
tremors you can't control
no smiles, no hugs, no jokes
certainly no daily phone calls
just to say... I love you.
I think I was stronger, when I
was there, every day, every night.
I hope you aren't disappointed in me,
I'll try Mom, too push aside that fear
or at least hide it well, but only once a week.

© 2012 SpitfireGrrrl


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. absolutely earnest and beautiful poetry ... the best advice i received was "do what you can until you can do more" ... and "if it's too heavy, put it down" ... and of course ... "do what your heart says" ... don't judge yourself, my friend ... you're a golden girl and parents always know their children well ... be at peace and be well ... i know that you'll be able to do what you can ... you do so much for me even though we haven't met ... you warmed my heart by finding me ... i cannot begin to tell you how sure i am that you're awesome ...

Posted 12 Years Ago


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12 Years Ago

Thanks, Serah. I appreciate it!
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12 Years Ago

. the privilege is all mine :) ...

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I've been coming and going from here for a while now. I'll just... stop writing for a while and step away, then come back for a little while. :) It's been lots of fun reading all the new stuff from.. more..

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