4 letter words......

Just me Venting...

 It's amazing how a simple 4 letter word, can be the reason for someone to become Complete, feel kind, be caring, be sweet, be thoughtful,  become angery, become fusterated, become lost, become jealous, become confused and hateful. If someone was lost, they become found, it can give someone who wanted to die, a reason to live again, it can make someone who felt alive and complete, feel empty and morbid. It can create a state of Perfect Nirvāna or a state of depression.   It can make you crazy happy or violently insane...

 

when I was writting this, "the nothing song" played on my Ipod then i had the sudden feeling that i might end up alone. I have single-handedly managed to push everyone that has ever cared or loved me out of my life for one reason or another.  And for what? to leave someone before they had the chance to leave me? really? i have become this Arrogant, Pompus, self centered a*****e that doesnt want anything from anybody..... and for what? So i can live life to the "fullest"? If i could change my past or erase my mistakes, would I?  I absolutely wouldnt, or else i wouldnt be the person I am today, right now, at this moment...... I NEVER ment to make her cry, I never ment to make her feel that she isnt worthy, Im just complicated in my thinking and irrational.  I only ask that you dont cry for me anymore because that person is already dead and  because he's not worth your tears, you're a great person and I hope this finds you happy and healthy, enjoying life to the fullest!  I just want this moment in my life to pass, I'm not a bad person, just made mistakes, im not perfect, Perfection is should be a path not a state of mind, therefore, I put everyhting that im saying out to the people, my network, my family and my friends, filled with a flood of emotion that I have repressed for years, the resentment and hate that has been my  Achilles’ heel.  I want a life filled with harmony and Eurphoria.  I think this is the start of my new life. I love you all.

Author's Note

Ignore grammar problems.. please..