To Kill Me

I wrote this during breakfast...

I don’t need your help to kill myself

I can do it all by myself

I’m a big girl now, able to decide without the advice of others

It’s unnecessary for your presence to hover over my heart

Pulling strings and cutting cords, ripping vital bloodlines apart

Aiming to drown me in misery, suffocate me in your empty promises and lack of true sympathy

Don’t stand there – don’t offer to hold the knife before I ram it into my stomach

Don’t smile and nod – suggesting the proper knot to tie if I want to feel less pain once you kick the stool out from under me

No, no… I don’t need your tips or advice

I don’t need you to call 911 or try to fight my decision to leave this world behind

No – I’m a big girl now; I can do this without your help

I can do it without your help

I can do it all by myself

The ball was never in your court, ‘cause baby,

Suicide’s not a spectator sport.

Reviews

[LlamaLord]

"Aiming to drown me in misery, suffocate me in your empty promises and lack of true sympathy"

Wow. This TRULY caught my attention. Wonderfully written piece. The devices you used were written with such vivid description! I also really like how you switched from the direct subject, to another. At the beginning, you talk about you killing yourself. Then it sort of switches gears into saying 'how', then how you feel about it. One more thing... the last line flowed so great with the entire piece. Love this piece!

Austin

[Angelic Darkness]

This is a emotional poem, and not just sad, but there
is a strength here. If one looks behind the darkness,
the pain, there is a power of taking control, not just
about death.

This is a very well written poem...AD

[kimberley]

Impressive piece. Deep emotion, darkness, devastation, but nonetheless a glimmer of hope and light one senses. Also there is to read between the lines someone who has grown up and has become strong and proud.

Keep it up - this is very good. You impressed me!

[Amy]

This is well written.
You capture so much emotion!
Keep it up! x