Not the Same Now

An offering to the angst muses, may they give me peace. A farewell to old unrequited loves, and a dedication to all friends estranged by graduation.

           Not the Same Now
-A Dedication to the Estranged-

 

I miss you.

You’re not who you used to be.

We used to be closer than this, so much closer.

I barely know you anymore.

Don’t go, please, don’t leave me.

Even seeing a stranger with your face is better than never seeing you again.

It hurts when you go.

 

It hurts to see you with her.

You act like you never cared, and maybe you didn’t.

But I did.

I cared a lot.

You never noticed, but I would’ve done anything for you.

I loved you.

You never knew.

It didn’t matter, not to me.

 

I used to know her, too.

She and I used to be close.

She’s not who se used to be, either.

You’ve both changed.

Changed each other.

Changed together.

I can’t say it’s for the better.

 

I don’t know why I torture myself like this.

Stay in contact with you two,

watch you change even more.

I can’t look away.

I’m afraid you’ll change too much,

And I won’t be able to recognize you.

I’m afraid I’ll lose you.

But I think I already have.

 

You’re not the same now.

 

But neither am I.

Author's Note

Please excuse my angst of late. I do hope ya'll enjoy the sentiment.
-K.