The Backlash

“You'll never understand me!” She yelled as she slammed the apartment door closed.

Bags in hand, sobbing as she descended the stairs to her car. “I am so tired of all this s**t!” she says to herself. As she exits the building.

And makes her way to the car parked out side it was getting dark, it was a warm summer evening. “I am a grown woman and I can make my own decisions.” She said to herself.

She recently had a fall out with her mother over her recent actions. Her mother found out her daughters secret and was so devastated, she could no longer hold back all her emotions therefor she let her feelings be aired, she was tired of her daughter jumping from one man to another.

Not willing to see good or fight for anything that was good, she was a with a good man, not perfect but good, they had their troubles but all relationships do there is no fairy tales.

She left her man and just after three weeks was already committed to another man.

She was hurt so she was looking for affection, her boyfriend pushed her to break up, yet the situation was more complicated than she could fully understand.

Yet, this does not excuse jumping from one relationship to another and her mother let her know that.

“I have morals” she muttered. “I just don’t want to be stuck in a loveless relationship.”

What she did not know is that her old boyfriend loved her dearly and wished to marry her. “Did I give up so easily?” She thought for a moment “No, I was patient, I gave him enough of my energy and time. Now its time to think about me.” As she approached the car she unlocked it and put her belongings in the back.

She then took the phone from her purse and went through the phone book found his number and called.

The phone rang out but no answer “Great, I guess he is ignoring me too she thought.” Suddenly her phone rang. It was him calling back “Hello” she said calmly “Hi, how are you?” “Sorry I could not answer straight away, you know why.” said the man on the phone, “Yes, she responded. “Do you have time? can I see you?”

Man paused on the phone and said “I can be there in around 50 minutes, same place as usually?” “Yes, will you spend the night with me? I need you right now.” She said. “Give me 5 minutes I will call you back.” He said “okay” then it was silence and he hung up.

She opened the car door and sat in the car, put the keys in the ignition and started the engine. She waited patiently for him to call back. She no longer thought about her man whom she was with for a long time, he did not exist to her anymore. She claimed she was happier without him.

“I need someone who understands me and I feel I have found him.” The phone rings she answers “Hi” He says “I can spend the night with you, the same hotel as usual okay?” “Yes” she said “I will meet you there at the bar.” “Ok” the man replied.

She was in her mid thirties and living with family, she worked a great job and had a very nice salary. “Money does not bring true happiness, but it helps.” she began to think to herself. 15 minutes of driving and she arrived at the hotel she parked and made her way to the bar. On arrival she ordered a cocktail and sat waiting for him to come.

After 35 minutes he arrived he was in his early forties but looked older for his age. Time had not been kind to this man at all,

he walked towards her and kissed her, gave her a hug and asked if she would like to have another drink here? She responded “lets just order drinks from room service.” He said okay went to the hotel reception and paid for the room. Collected the keys and made their way upstairs.

“I am sorry I did not answer your call, my wife was beside me at the time we were watching TV together. I told her it was business and it can wait until tomorrow. She said it must be urgent if its late. And that's why I called you back..” he said “It's okay I understand, but how did you explain staying out tonight.” “I told her I have an early meeting in the next city tomorrow, so its better to leave and stay in hotel and arrive back tomorrow. She agreed and helped me pack.” “Okay” the woman responded, not feeling the slightest amount of guilt. “I am just happy you are here.” She immediately kissed him and started undressing herself he done the same.

After their intense sexual encounter she lay there heart racing. He got up, to go to the shower “Where you going?” she asked “To the shower he replied “Why, are we finished for tonight?” he responded “Yes, I am little tired today its been a long day.”

Ok the man was in shower she lay waiting for him to return. When he walked back he put his wedding ring back on, so he would not lose it. The woman did not shower she was happy just to lay there.

He got back into the bed and looked at the ceiling, staring blankly, she tried to cuddle him but he did not react to her advances. She left her boyfriend because of fights yet ended up having an affair with a married man.

He looked at her and said “I enjoy being with you.” She looked him and smiled “Me too!”

“So tell me what happened today?” He said

“My mother asked about my ex I said that it was over that he is no longer important to me. It's better without him in my life.

She then insisted I have no morals jumping from one man to another. That I am a coward and afraid to some to make something work, if it was good before it can be good again. But you gave up and after 3 weeks find another man.”

I then continued to tell her “I am beautiful, woman and I can to what I like. I also said that I am happier now and feel good.”

What about your ex?” the man asked

“What about him? he is no issue in my life anymore.”

“Was he really that bad?” he asked

“He did not make me feel like a woman.”

she responded.

“You know I will always treat you like a woman.” he said “I know she responded” “That is why I am with you.” she kissed him and said “Thank you for being here with me.” “Anytime.” he said

The next day he woke up earlier than she and drank coffee then dressed and packed his things“Wake up.” he said “I am leaving in 20 minutes, “Why?” she asked, “I will go to the office early and try to get some extra work done.” Oh she said in a disappointed tone. “Can't we have little fun before hand?” he said we will next time I am showered and dressed now, sorry.” “Ok” she replied disappointed again. “Have some breakfast I will call you later okay?” “Sure she said.

She felt happy but at the same time sad she was not loved by this man she was simply being used, but its all she could find right now.

She was afraid of commitment. Her fears are ruining every relationship she has ever had, yet she has the habit to blame everyone else for her own wrong doings.

I guess that makes her feel good about herself and guilt free, but she was no longer guilt free she was that other woman, to a married man who had a loving wife and child at home. They only chatted can called each other met for dinners and walked on various occasions had sex in various hotels,

The only difference between her and a prostitute was the fact that a prostitute acknowledged what they were doing. And for them it was their job, they did not grow attached. She on the other had is less than that because she takes no money and hopes for a future.

“I am not doing anything wrong she thought to herself I don't know whats going on in his home life.”