Burned into my life.

So at this point its mere hours before I get the tattoo ive been thinking about since freshman year in high school. Its an idea I find to be very deep and in many ways very poetic. Honestly it doesnt suprize me that it has turned out this way only because when it comes down to it this tattoo is connected so many ways to my writing. It would make sense after all that it is poetic in any sense of the word. Im only slightly worried about the pain involved in getting the tattoo done but the closer and closer it gets to actually being done the more and more I realize it is what should happen and I have no reason to really be afraid of it. The truth of the matter is ive been thinking about this for nearly 10 years at this point and have no reason to believe I would in any way regret it when its said and done. I know that when it is done ill be happy to have it and I know that ill feel just that much closer to my writing and to the poetic side of who I have become over the years. At one point in high school I was trying to hide the fact that I wrote poetry because I knew it wouldnt be looked at in a good way by most if not all of the people I went to school with. These days I have come to realize that being a poet is something I should be proud of and it has become such a big outlet emotionally for me that there is no reason at this point to not litterally wear my emotions on my sleeve. It is only right as a symbol of who ive become. It is me and at this point I have no reason to hide that anymore. In mere hours that simple fact that I dont want to hide my feelings and that I am proud to be a poet will be on my skin and never come off. I cant wait for that moment when I am able to see it and able to enjoy knowing the pain is done. Yeah, thats right...im still just a little afraid of the pain. I mean after all its never been done before with me so how am I supposed to know what to expect, right? I know I can handle it. I just am more excited than nervous I think at this point.