Chapter 2 Out Of The Fire

The events of days past in the wake of hard times.

Alright, so the last time I wrote into the Ghost Self Saga I was only 22. Obviously it has been quite a while since the last time I said anything about what has happened in the last couple of years. Events have gotten to the point that things have settled down and I have finally been able to catch my breath from what seemed like a storm that was never going to end. Truth be told life is pretty good right now and honestly I think i am finally getting to the point of being able to deal with my grandma's death even though its easily the hardest thing ive ever had to deal with. The thoughts of going to her funeral are still in my mind and I do everything I can to handle them as best as possible and honestly ive done ok with it so far. Anyone that has gone through something like that knows it sucks and can be really hard. I try every day to think about it and smile and its getting easier even though i knew going into it all that it would be really hard and the words of my family have come to be more and more true as the days have gone by. Its actually funny that I have had such a love affair with the band Disturbed the last couple months seeing as how "The Infection" off of the Asylum album almost feels like it has been the story of my life the last couple months. It does help that my social life has taken a turn for the better since she passed. At the time of her passing I did have friends but it was seemed to me they were all friends that were somehow distant. Wether that be friends that I wasnt comfortable talking about grandma's death with or just friends that were physcially different with me having met them online. I do have a couple of friends that have become very close that I talk to online. Those of course being Sara and Meagan. I am of course glad that things have taken a turn for the better and the fact that I have been better able to deal with problems that come up over this period of time is a good sign as well. It is a situation that I am proud to say is something I never thought would happen and its nice to see it finally come to be honest. I love the fact that I am getting closer and closer to not having to cry when I think of grandma. More smiles are starting to show when I think of her and it is cirtainly nice. Of course I have no idea when this seemingly good point in my life will end but I hope its not for a long time. We all go through ups and downs in life. Its just something that is going to happen in someone's life without them really having control over it. We'll see where it ends up but I know for a fact the biggest event...of course that being grandma passing is finally starting to fade into the backround of things that are happening. Not to say that my thoughts of her are fading...of course they never will but the fact is it is getting easier to deal with thoughts of her coming up and rarely are they sad anymore. Things are finally starting to look up to be honest and its nice to know that it will start to happen more nad