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Again I find myself at this place
Another door slammed at my face
How futile it is to seek right from wrong
Even if its for what the heart desperately longs

Can my words garnished with tears try to explain
These motions of emotions can my heart contain
Where I was abandoned,condemned for my frailties
Exposed in my moments of vulnerability

They said everyone is welcome to dine at Love's table
But one can only do so well seated and comfortable
Lest a sour taste is acquired from a happy meal
And the life draining out your soul you feel

Unqualified ,hurt bruised and battered
I run back into the arms of my father
I'm thankful He is not angry I faltered
Gradually I'm directed back from where I have strayed farther

Its not all Roses,Rainbows and Sunshine
On many days am anything but fine
Each layer of me uncovered on my journey to heal
Unimaginable pain within I deeply feel

My father is with me each step of the way
I'm learning to take it one moment a day
Though I'm terribly flawed and not perfect
I know I am worth,deserving of love,kindness and respect