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To the one and only redeemer of time
I wonder if there's still time to redeem me
Please be merciful and kindly listen to me
I only got a heavy heart not a penny or a dime

I'm that inquisitive little child
Grown with different emotions running wild
And a really heavy heart
I want to pour out from the very start

In the waters of life I'm drowning
Navigating through deep faith and unbelief
Like a cloudy day when the sky is weeping
Where the silent tears don't bring any relief

I feel so helpless and lack trust in my abilities
In the fact that I can ever do anything right
All I ever heard of was the ill fate of my stupidity
Gradually I'm sinking,drowning without a fight

For what's really there to fight for?
Each day comes with a reminder of my worthlessness
For they all eventually walk out of my door
Leaving me stranded in my helplessness


I spend sometime staring at the sun
Wondering if She hadn't gone
Will I and things have been different
Or is this pain and suffering inherent
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[John the Baptist]

"For they all eventually walk out of my door". That line gives the impression that much of the pain described in this work stems from relationships gone sour. Other parts of the poem indicate there was much verbal abuse in these relationships. Perhaps the speaker could come to see these events as directions rather than disasters. Perhaps also the relationship with the self could be improved, for that may be the source of the other trouble.