SURVIVING

Of whips,slaps,hunger backed by the Bible
Formed the memories and pictures in my mind of you
And a resolve in my heart to never stay idle
Still in my head I hear your voice telling me all I cannot do

With a belly full of hunger
And a mind calmed by anger
I struggled through this place called life
Body and mind designed by physical and verbal marks that pierced like knifes

Reminded daily of my worthlessness
Of a future that was termed hopeless
I wondered what crime I committed by being born
To deserve all that to me was being done

From people I stayed away and was no match for my mates
In the corners of my mind and the walls of my heart I built a gate
I could trust only me
Though all of the times I was lonely

I searched for a possible reason for your behavior
Many a time I repayed with kind gestures
That only increased my offense
I decided to stop the pretense

Where was I to go as a stranger in my home
I was left to the streets to roam
You just did not care
And you made it clear I wasn't wanted there

Now the tables are turning
Beneath your lies the truth I am seeing
A place that rejected me wants a returning
But I've packed my bags and I'm fleeing

And I'm not in anyway worthless
My future is bright and blessed I confess
Yes I still struggle with the trauma
I stay as far away as I can from drama

I have but just one resolve
With me abuse and pain will dissolve
I refuse to walk in the previous footsteps
But gradually take my own baby steps