I Get To Live

I get to live again today
Amidst the numerous voices
In my head questioning my choices

I get to live again today
With the fact that i can no longer do
All the things that i could

I get to live again today
Though it is inherent
That from them all i am different

I get to live again today
When it feels best to up and runaway
And not fight for a chance to stay

I get to live again today
Taking each day,per second,per minute and per hour
Subsumed under dark clouds and cold showers

I get to live again today
Though old ghosts from my past
Whisper to me that in this battle i will not last

I get to live again today
Though it is best to up and runaway
Not fighting for a chance to stay

I get to live again today
Though friends have turned to foes
I pass time counting my fingers and toes
Each day fills me up with an unknown fear
I am drowning in my own tears
Though my body is weakening
My resolve is failing
Still i get to live today
And will try again the next day