Heaven's Confidential

To the mysterious creator of heaven and earth
Do you mind interrogations from this creation made of dirt
Cos in my head are a thousand and one questions
People are not bold enough to mention

Like why as actors in the cast of life's play
We don't get to rehearse even for a day
Why we are blessed with the gift of a free will
But get punished when we don't do your will

They say you can speak to everybody
But you don't just talk to anybody
I wonder if I'll be considered special
To be let in on heaven's confidential

If she was forced upon without her consent
Must she nurture the seed from an ugly
past in her present
If only a selected few will make heaven
What happens to the odds in your even

They say for all you have a great plan
Can You show us so we can fully understand
And find in life meaning and purpose
So we don't resort to dangling from ropes

They say you can speak to everybody
But you don't just talk to anybody
I wonder if I'll be considered special
To be let in on heaven's confidential

I dare not stand before your holy temple
My actions most times filled with evil
Still all the clean souls doing good
Die young or get harmed by wicked brutes

Can you help me unravel this anomaly
Till now i still grieve for my mummy
Will you be kind to provide a clear picture
of a future in which we ought to feature

See life's getting cold and lonely
And your people deem the likes of us
Unworthy
So we stay clear off your holy church
Because they don't like us in there much

And what about those suffering from depression
They dare not confide in the next person
For every idiot classifies their ineptitude
As selfishness and a lack of gratitude

But somehow i don't think it is so
Like the saying "who no go no know"
And i don't possess any particular wisdom
So I just sit ,observe and play dumb!

I tried to search for answers from the Bible
But I'm not as anointed as the disciples
So I'm left feeling more confused
Why do i bother what's the use?

Still i search earnestly for answers
I want insights to life's mysteries
And Heaven's best kept secrets
I wonder what of me it will require

They say you can speak to everybody
But you don't just talk to anybody
I wonder if I'll be considered special
To be let in on heaven's confidential