REST

I need a break,i need to rest
You keep pushing me like a sinner in the hands of an angry God
Whose life and misery is an expression of His unconditional Love

I'm exhausted, i sincerely confess
In life ,am i a loser? maybe,i guess
But i never wanted to be the strong one
Never wanted to be something or someone

In a world i am constantly reminded
That i am nothing and no one
Why then was i even born??
A question for God when I'm ascended

I do not deny that simple things terrify me
I'm not lazy but i dread going to work
Human activities gradually weaken me
I have to pretend, act happy to talk

I wonder if that makes me a liar
My family is clueless and friends are tired
Of me and my unending drama
I am close to them yet i have moved farther

They say i should hopeful and positive
And i will feel better i think that's relative
I'm not negative but i don't want to hope
With nothing to hang on to i can no longer cope
©SoulSeyiShinesvi2018