Confessions of A Tormented Soul

Confessions of A  Tormented Soul

My spirit is down and my heart is heavy

I find a quiet place to write my thoughts steady

Most times it helps relieve my mind’s burden

As I put these feelings n in wordings

 

I spend most of my time wondering

Why it is so hard to live a normal life

Why Happiness seems so foreign

Cos all I know is pain, hurt and strife

 

I would love to take a quick dive

Into life’s joyful ocean

The fearful thought pierces

My heart like a knife

 I rather stand and observe

 its gleeful motion

 

For such is not within my power

In my sober Pool I sink deeper

Alone with nothing but my unsaid fears

And my unshed tears

 

I wish I could go back to early childhood

There were no worries or cares

Life was fun, simple and easy

Nothing compared to adulthood

Life is hard, fearful and uneasy

 

I wish I had a decent family

A sense of belonging and security

Maybe I would understand

How to live normally

 

I wish I had a friend

Whose love and care won’t bring me distress

Who won’t be ashamed of how I dress

Who I can be myself with and not need pretend

 

I wish my past would let go of me

So I can be free to be all I can be

It destroys all my hope of a bright future

And binds me to it with strong sutures