Myself

A Poem by Marlena

A big middle finger to all those people that made my life hell.

What would I be like without you in my life?

standing in front of the crowd

wondering where my friends are, if they think of me too,

I have to ask

What would I be like without you in my life?

I'd be different for sure.

You taught me to stand up for myself

You taught me the hard way,

Don't step out of line

So now that's all I do

You taught me to be like you

So I became myself instead.

Thanks to all of you,

standing around me now

standing beneath me now

I'm who I am now

and I wonder, as I stare at my reflection

And I wonder, as I dismiss my hunger

And I wonder, as I pull up my hood and duck out of the way

out of the crowd

what I'd be like without you all.

© 2009 Marlena

Author's Note

"To all your friends you're delirious, so consumed in all you do. Trying hard to fill the emptiness, the peace is gone, left the puzzle undone and that's the way it is." - Christina Aguilera, Beautiful

Let's say this is incredibly personal. This is kind of like a big middle finger to all those kids that made fun of me when I was younger, that called me fat and said I was a freak. I wonder what they would think if they knew I relived what they did to me almost everyday?

Eh. I'm learning to get over it. That song I quoted is like a personal "theme song" at the moment, and I really wish I could get over it faster, but I'll take my time.

Comments and crit appreciated. <3

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Georgia Gypsy

(~hugs~ my dear, dear friend! i have gone through this as well!)
You did phenomenal with expressing your feelings. YOU are a great person, talented beyond words, strong enough to make it to hell and back! And taking us along with you through your poetry!
I love this, and would give you a standing ovation if you where close enough to hear it!