Who knows...

This is a thought and writing of mine. I AM NOT SUICIDIAL but if you know anyone who is please call: 1-800-273-8255

I dream so much And I just can’t seem to find an answer to what I’m living for.. I’m just done and broken,I’ve been broken and torn down to pieces that cannot be fixed nor put back together, in general I can’t keep living like this It’s breaking my heart each and everyday for the reason I truly have they’ve come to mind I mean who’s to say… Who’s to say you find an answer when there isn’t? What if you just die? What if life as we know it is honestly and truly just all a dream and when we open our eyes we are asleep but when you fall asleep you’re alive? Could our dreams be what we haven’t gone through or what awaits us in our next life? What if we live for no reason? What if we just disappear when you die and there is no saving of this so called god everyone speaks upon ?or is everyone brainwashed to think he is real.. Should I cling to life? Or should i just kill myself? So many contradictions, contemplations It’s getting harder and harder to mask my pain. The pain I have is like no other and indescribable to human kind nor could I even explain it myself… only way I can explain is by each slit on my wrist, the pain goes away and I feel free of stress. Free and alone. I can’t tell if I wanna live or if I wanna die Please…save me

Reviews

[Alexa Apothic Red]

This is so painful, and yes we all battle despair sometimes. There is also great hope and beauty and love in life too. I am glad that you added the disclaimer to your piece and that is reassuring but still there is great sadness in this and to pen it means there must be some creative ownness in you as well. I hope that you find something that makes you smile, smirk, laugh, sigh and know that all will be okay.

[Lou]

Believe me a pen and paper has saved my life. I’d honestly love to become a writer and publish poems or books once I become a better writer, writing is what makes me smile and feel free from what I feel. But thank you for reviewing this and leaving a comment it truly means a lot

[Alexa Apothic Red]

I agree.. learning to have an expressive release is sometimes all we need, and if that is the case for you, then get it all out. Flood your page with everything! Every thought, every feeling.. even if you keep the viewing limited.. just purge and get it beyond yourself. Journal absolutely every day and read everything you can get your hands on and I guarantee you will become a better writer. Glean inspiration from other writers who you like. Learn their methods... the humble, kind ones will offer advice and suggestions and happily mentor newer writers. Keep writing! Don't lose the pen.. and hold it to the paper to your dying breath!

[Rye]

I think everyone feels broken off and on, it's all about life. It stinks I know. Great job expressing yourself