The new girl

Its weird to see those words in you, those carvings in your legs saying “ugly”, “lazy”, “useless”, “lonely”, “stupid”, “sad?”, and on and on..
When you are in a “good” state of mind its actually astounding because you never thought you were going to be that girl that harm herself, because it just wasnt in you and because you were too of a chicken to do that, but sadly it doesnt hurt as much as it looks, it doesnt seems as crazy as it should and it doesnt concern you as it once did.
You are a new girl now, a girl that likes to remind herself her true self and in order to do this theres has to be pain involved, words to remind you the girl you are now, not a girl that dreams but a girl that sleeps, not a girl who is real, but a girl that fake her smile, not the girl who is honest, but the girl who pretends, not the happy girl, but the sad girl..