Time

I dont like time! I hate time! How is it that Im only 18 and I feel so old? Like all this memories like school, friends, church, camps, all this thing that will never be like they were once before!
How is it that time passes but we dont realize it until is too late? We are so worried about the future that we forget to live the present and when we least expect it we are in the future but wish we could be in the past? How is that we are never satisfied with time?
Time is the only thing I fear the most and its not about death time instead is about the past time, the past that we cant change and cant go back to, the past that have all this friends that we might never see again or even heard of again. time is so scary because is endless but we are not. Time is everything yet we dont take care of it, yet we dont worry about it.
How is it that Im only 18 and I feel like my past will never be the same yet I would love it to be the same, then how am I going to feel when Im 50?
Its so weird to think about all the times that i wished to be where I am right now, but now I just want to return in time and live at least a day in the past just to really appreciate the little things that might never be in my power again
Time is the really extintion of humanity because even when we are alive time consume us and kill us, every second that passes by, its a breath of a human being, its a blink of an eye, its a new born and its a dead body.
Time is fast as a bullet tho we dont even see it going and going, like this paragraph that you are reading took you 3 minutes of your life that you wont even remember in a few years but its crazy how vividly you are reading and analyzing this right now but in a not far away future you wont remember a single world of this, you wont remember even reading this, you wont remember what time is and will waste it, like everyone does and like I just did writting this paragraph