I Heard You Call

I heard you call me
But it was only in my head
You spoke so softly
As you held on tightly to the thread
These threads of life, unraveling my tapestry
I'm being torn apart by all the feelings deep inside of me

I'm being pulled
In every direction
And the eye of this hurricane
Does not offer me protection
I need to find a way to release all of my fear
If I don't, then I don't think I'll last another year

I feel the whirlwinds spinning deep inside my soul
I need to fill the void, I've always felt so empty with this hole
Where my heart should be, but I am too afraid to open up
I don't think that I can take the pain of one more cut

The pain that I felt
When you chose to leave
Stayed with me for so long
And there was no reprieve
No one said the words that I most needed to hear
No one told me how I could overcome that debilitating fear
No one told me everything would be okay
No one told me how to make it go away

I heard you call me
But I know it's not real
It's just a manifestation
Of the pain that I still feel
Each day the pain diminishes a little more
One day I hope to put my feet upon the floor
Without the ground opening up and taking me
Back to the source of all this misery
The source of all the sadness in me
The source of this insanity

I thought I heard you call me
I thought I heard you call