My Destiny

All those times you pushed me down
Roughed me up, threw me around
They changed me more than they should
All those times you broke my heart
Ripped to pieces, torn apart
Hurt me more than anyone else could

Still I loved you
I trusted you
I never even thought to walk away
No matter how much you hurt me
I thought you were my destiny
With you is where I'd always stay

Now you've made your last mistake
And my heart will no longer break
Once you're buried, I won't ever visit your grave
You thought you were invincible
But you wrapped your car around a pole
And your pathetic life could not be saved

I begged you not to drink and drive
I told you you wouldn't come home alive
I'm just glad that no one else was hurt
With no love left, I will not cry
As I stand beneath the bright blue sky
And I watch as your body is interred

When you gave me my first kiss
I never thought it would end like this
There were so many things I didn't know
I loved you from the very start
But before too long, you broke my heart
And by then, it was too late for me to go

So I accepted
That I'd be neglected
I would stay up every night and cry
I'd cry myself to sleep
Without you next to me
But never once did I want you to die

I don't have it in my heart
To rip another soul apart
No matter how badly you've treated me
Ironically, I am not glad
But I will not pretend I'm sad
Without you here, I am finally free

Free from under your control
And free to crawl out of this hole
That you have had me in since we first met
Free to let my bruises heal
Free to find a love that's real
And free to do the things I've not done yet

I want to stand beneath the falling rain
Wash away these tears and pain
Crawl out of this endless hole
And breathe new life into my soul
I want to laugh until I cry
And smile every day that I'm alive
But most of all, I want what you wouldn't give
Someone to share my life with

Now I stand alone again
With no one I can call my friend
You made sure that I had only you
Though it hurts, I will not cry
I won't let one tear fall from these eyes
I know one day I will not feel so blue

Until then, I will keep on trying
To live my life instead of dying
I will bring the change I hope to see
One day, everything will click
And I will find just where I fit
I'll finally find the one who's right for me
I'll finally find my destiny