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I got lost inside my own head again
I was lost for years
Hiding out from all of the monsters
And all of my fears
I was afraid of everything around me
I was afraid of everything that I could see
I didn't know if I could be worth it
I was convinced that I'd always be worthless

I told you that you'd hurt me
Now I turn around and you desert me
Since the day we met, you've been pulling away
And there was nothing that I could say
I tried to lay the foundation
But you responded with a condemnation
Condemning me for all that I lack
And every day was a new attack

Now I'm living this life alone
Since you walked away with your heart of stone
I expected the worst, but still I hoped for the best
But now all those thoughts have been laid to rest
I'm standing alone underneath the stars
Wishing that I could reach that far
But even if I could, I would surely be burned
Another lesson I have yet to learn

So I never gave you any reason
To stay here with me
Looking back, I probably pushed you out the door
With all my negativity
I was convinced that I was nothing
And you told me you needed something
But there wasn't anything for me to give
So now I have to learn how to live

On my own
With no place to call home
Just a place where I can sit
Hang my head and reminisce
The days when you and I were one
Before the damage had been done
When I could still cover up and hide
All the emptiness inside

Now I'm trying so hard to find
Something worthwhile in this life of mine
I don't want to gain and then lose another friend
I don't want to go down that road again
I want to find the path that will break the chains
I want to find the path that can take away the pain
But I still don't know which way to turn
Another lesson I have yet to learn