Down On My Knees

I'm trying so hard to organize
All the thoughts in my head, all the truths and the lies
But they all get jumbled around
And the truths end up lost, only lies can be found

Why is it so hard to see the light?
Why does it always have to be a fight?

I'm so sick and tired of this war in my head
If it doesn't end soon, I just might end up dead
It feels like I'm being pulled in every direction
And all of these feelings just fuel my aggression
Now this aggression is running through my veins
It fills me completely and takes away the pain
But it keeps me down on my knees

Every day I try to clear my mind
Look for a peace that I will never find
Look for a way to get my life on track
Try to lose all this anger, but it keeps coming back

Why can't I keep these feelings at bay?
Why is it so hard to find my way?

I'm so sick and tired of this war in my head
I try to calm this rage, but it doubles instead
It seems impossible to keep my mind open
I'm not having much luck, but I still keep on hoping
That one day I will find my inner peace
And all of these feelings will finally be released
So I can get off of my knees

I'm trying hard to compartmentalize
And to block off the thoughts that bring tears to my eyes
So many things I wish I could take back
But life keeps moving forward, we can't change the past

My only hope is to learn from my mistakes
And hope for the vision to tell what's real and what's fake

I'm so sick and tired of this war in my head

And the fear and the anger with which it is fed
I need a way to bring this war to an end
Why the fighting continues, I cannot comprehend
The war keeps on raging in me every day
And I've never known any other way
But it keeps me down on my knees