I wake up one more time
underneath the dying sun
And though this world is big, I still
have nowhere to run
It doesn't matter where I go, I am always with
me
Always at war with myself, split personality
Part
of me wants to move forward, part wants to remain
Part of me wants
to be numb, part wants to feel the pain
If I can feel the pain,
then at least I can feel something
But if pain is all I can feel,
I would rather feel nothing
Part
of me holds on to hope, it doesn't matter how small
Part of me has
given up, let go of one and all
Hope can be uplifting, it can help
me through the pain
But when that hope is unfulfilled, it can
drive me insane
False
hope turns into depression every single time
And then it's hard
for me to stay on this side of the line
The line between
self-harming thoughts and putting them to action
The line is
blurred already from constant dissatisfaction
Dissatisfied
in all the ways that life has treated me
Is it wrong, too much to
ask, for me to be happy?
Happiness is something I am always
searching for
But fate has different plans, and pain is all it has
in store
Even
through the pain, there is still a part of me
Which keeps on
hoping that one day, I'll finally be free
That hope gives me the
strength each day to open up my eyes
And hope to see bright blue
above when I live under blackened skies