I Cut, I Bleed

I tried to stop, but I'm too weak
The pain builds up and needs release
I tried to find another way
But the pain is here to stay

The only way to make it go
Is to let the blood drops flow
As the blood runs down the drain
It takes with it all the pain

I'm not trying to make scars
In fact, I'm trying very hard
To leave no evidence of this
That's why I don't go near my wrists

I'm not looking for attention
Or psychological inspection
I just want to cure the pain
That washes over me like rain

The pain starts out inside my mind
But after just a little time
The pain grows in intensity
And then starts hurting physically

Pills do nothing, I've tried them all
Aleve, Motrin, and Tylenol
The pain remains and continues to grow
Until the blood begins to flow

As the redness stains my shirt
My body calms down and it no longer hurts
But I know it's just a stop-gap measure
Tomorrow, I'll once again feel the pressure

And then, I'll have to cut once more
To release the pain my body has stored
The pain that builds up every day
I wish there was another way