Far and Wide

You tell me I'm a failure
That I was never good enough
You tell me that I'm worthless
And I never will amount to much
What's the source of your angry words
I never did you any wrong
But you blame me for everyone leaving
I'm the only reason they're gone

I accepted all your hateful words
My ego took all of your hits
Your vicious lies tore me up inside
And I was reduced to this
Just a floundering soul drowning in a hole
With fear and doubt covering me
But I'll break through and I will rise above
This Hell you've constructed for me

When you left, you thought that I
Would come crawling back on my knees
I was tempted, but when I looked inside
I was happy without your hostility
Without your words covering me like dirt
I finally saw blue skies above
I realized the truth I'd known all along
You were filled with hate, and I was filled with love

I know they say opposites attract
But love and hate can never be mixed
Hate is so much stronger, it will always overpower
It will take that love and make it feel sick
Hate will slowly turn love to indifference
And that's when hate will grab on tight
It will spread into that hollow shell of indifference
And fill it with a hate that's black as night

So you think that you broke me
When you chose to walk out that door
But I'm stronger now, filled with much more love
Than I ever have been before
The love you stole has returned to me
To heal all the damage inside
When you left, I was broken, now I've been refurbished
Repaired everything but my pride

My pride has taken a senseless beating
Because I could not see who you really are
Your colors all changed when I was drawn in close
Nothing like when they were viewed from afar
Because I could not see through your deception
I put my guard up, looked through wary eyes
With my guard now lowered, I must trust my heart
So I can see clearly when I close my eyes

I'll live my life with my eyes closed
So that I can see without prejudice
Hoping my heart will not fail me again
But knowing the possibility exists
I would rather love with no return
And get my heart broken again
Than live a guarded and sheltered life
Where I don't let anyone in

I trust that one day, my heart will be taken
Into the hands of an angel above
And then my heart will be delivered to
A beautiful soul which is teeming with love
Together, the two of us will radiate
The warmth and the love the flows from inside
Casting off every last vestige of hate
And spreading our love both far and wide