Forevermore

Sometimes, I just can't believe
How this pain builds inside of me
A single comment made in jest
Tears me apart, then I'm a mess

I am standing on the edge
Leaning forward, beyond the ledge
As always, nobody is there
Am I fooling myself thinking somebody cares

Everybody was here yesterday
But when the night ended, they all went away
Now here I stand
Reaching out my hand
Hoping somebody will ask me to stay

Losing all my hope
At the end of my rope
Clinging on to life by the skin of my teeth

Looking for the cure
To the pain that I endure
Just trying to find something I can believe

When I flush out the pain
It just comes back again
Will it ever go for good
I wish so much it finally would

But when one problem is resolved
And its pain has all been dissolved
Then I open up the door
And I see a thousand more

The pain and the pressure quickly build
They fill my mind completely, all the space is filled
My mind is infused with doubt
And I can't find my way out
Onto the floor, my hopes and dreams are spilled

The pain's unregulated
And my hope has been negated
The hope, it dissipates into the air

Depression comes back stronger
Its duration is much longer
I've nothing left inside me but despair

A flash flood from the rain
Envelopes me with pain
The world's eyes view me with contempt
I thought that I was different

But my eyes finally see
What this world thinks of me
If I keep trying to fit in
I'll always lose, I'll never win

It's time for me to leave the chains behind
Cast off society's expectations, leaving only mine
To be all that I can be
Stay true to me and only me
Only when that's done can I hope to find

The blackened clouds will go away
Tranquility will come and stay
I'll finally find the peace I'm searching for

I'll say goodbye to depression
To darkness, I will not give in
I'll live a life of peace forevermore

Reviews

[chandlerl]

Just...wow. A good wow...a great wow. A wow that gives you 100/100 because I fricken loved this piece. It was darkly beautifully written and developed from the dark into the light of hope and eloquence that anyone would love. Thanks for writing. I'll keep reading. =)