I Know of a Girl

A Poem by Somber Eyes

I know of a girl... Do you? Maybe you know of a boy? The time for passive acceptance is through. It's time to start helping, time to start healing. They may say they're okay, but they're not...

I know of a girl
She cuts herself
And her own mind
Is her own Hell

She's been through much
It's taken its toll
Pushing her farther
Into a hole

A bottomless pit
Of depression, despair
She's gasping for breath
No oxygen, air

Life is caving in
Blackness all around
Growing smaller every day
Helplessness abounds

She tries to find a light
But the darkness is too thick
Filling up her lungs
Making her feel sick

She tries to claw her way out
Fingers worn and bleeding
She hates the way she feels
Unworthy and misleading

She cries out in the darkness
But crying silently
Nobody notices
No one hears her silent screams

She's been falling for so long
Falling eternally
She thinks she'll fall forever
But then she falls into me

Her bloody fingers grab my arm
And as they do, leave bloody streaks
I wrap my arms around her waist
And hold tight, pull her close to me

Momentum pulls us farther down
But soon enough, our descent slows
Before too long, the falling stops
And as it does, hope starts to grow

She looks at me with childlike wonder
Amazed that we are not falling through
See, I've been in this pit much longer
And I've learned a thing or two

There is no end, no rock bottom
It truly is an endless fall
But with each second you descend
More intensely, grows the pall

And as the pall grows stronger, darker
It weighs more heavily on your soul
And soon, the weight may be too much
For you to crawl out of this hole

When that becomes all that you know
You must find something to focus on
Otherwise, darkness overwhelms you
And then all trace of existence is gone

So let your mind focus only on
The changes that you want to see
In time, you'll bring about those changes
I know it works, it worked for me

So now I'm floating with this girl
In darkness, far into the pit
And as my hands touch her waist
I feel the blood where her skin splits

I move my hand, but to my dismay
I feel the bumps of long-healed wounds
My fingertips touch the proceeds of pain
Culmination of pain, both old and new

As I feel her wounds, my heart falls to pieces
And I can't fight back the tears in my eyes
As I hold her so close, a tear falls to her cheek
And she's showered with all of the tears that I cry

I hope my tears can speed up her rebirth
Help wash away pain and all of her sorrows
Wash away darkness so that she may see
That hope can prevail, with a glimpse of tomorrow

Until that time, I will hold her in my arms
And we can ascend through this pit together
My hands will remain on her wounds 'til they're healed
And I'll keep them protected for now and forever

I'll take her arms and wrap them around my neck
So that she's not tempted to cut any more
I'll stay with her, give her an outlet for pain
So that she doesn't do what she did before

I'll tell her about my present and my past
So that she can see redemption can be found
I'll tell her she's special until she believes it
And then she will once more be on solid ground

Once on solid ground, I will be with her always
And she can be cut-free for all of her days
So I'm begging her now, as I did when we met
Take hold of my hand, and throw the blade away