Out of Tears

A Poem by Somber Eyes

For many years, I cried and cried
Countless tears fell from my eyes
But it didn't do me any good
And I never really understood
I cried until my eyes were burning
But the pain kept on returning
I couldn't seem to keep it at bay
I didn't know how to flush it away

The pain was a continuous cycle
And it left me suicidal
Even though I never tried
I so badly wanted to die
The pain was quickly destroying my heart
And I didn't know where to start
I didn't know if I could heal
From the pain that was all too real

When I started writing words
I noticed I felt a little less hurt
And it gave me something to focus on
Instead of things that I knew were wrong
Even though the pain was still there
A glimmer of hope broke through the despair
But it was soon captured, surrounded by doubt
And it took several years to figure it out

The pain was preventing me from moving past
And even though I wanted to get away fast
My heart was anchored to that horrible night
I wanted to move, but it was useless to fight
I took it harder than most people do
And it took me longer to stop feeling blue
It hurt less when I was writing my lines
But I knew the ultimate secret was time

Enough time has passed that I no longer cry
I still feel the sadness, but don't want to die
I've got too much life left, so much to give
I want to find happiness, to truly live
On most days, a dark cloud still hangs over me
And I'm still kept silent by insecurity
But one thing I won't do is give in to fears
I'm done crying now, my heart's out of tears