Through the Pain

Another year comes to a close
And still there isn't one who knows
The pain that I have been holding inside

Another year under my belt
And no one knows what I have felt
There's no one into whom I can confide

I've learned to smile through the pain
And not to fear the falling rain
But when nobody else is within sight

That's when I let loose the tears
Accumulated through the years
I spill them all into the black of night

I'm bound by insecurity
From which I can't seem to break free
I wear it like it was a second skin

A skin I hope to one day shed
With all the tears that I have bled
The tears I will no longer keep within

Emotions take their toll on me
And fuel my constant misery
But I've learned how to not let them show through

I've learned to walk a steady pace
And keep a smile on my face
When inside I am always feeling blue

I've built up walls of pain and tears
To hold inside me all the fears
That always seem to scare people away

I hope that I can find the key
To shed my insecurity
And maybe find my confidence someday

Until then I will stand alone
With broken heart and empty home
Waiting for the day when I'll be free

'Til then I sit with bated breath
As all my dreams are filled with death
And waking hours filled with misery