Falling

A Poem by Somber Eyes

When you left, I fell to the floor
How could I go on anymore
You were all that I had ever known
But you left and you left me all alone

How could I go on without you
I tried, but I didn't know what to do
I was lost with no place to call home
I was lost and scared and all alone

Years have passed, but I'm still the same
A new address, but nothing else has changed
I'm still the boy whose heart you broke
Holding on tightly to the end of my rope

Still insecure and still powerless
Still wondering how I failed love's little tests
Still don't know why you chose to run away
Still can't figure out why you never wanted to stay

I'm falling
I'm calling
But you don't hear my cries
I'm falling
I'm stalling
Because I don't want to die
I know that Death is stalking me
And he is just two steps behind
I'm falling
I'm falling
And I'm running out of time

When you left, I resorted to self-inspection
But that just sent me into a spiraling depression
I realized that I was nothing without you
When you left, you took all my confidence, too

So now I don't even have the strength to say hello
And because of this, my fear of everything continues to grow
The fear feeds into itself in perpetuity
And the growing fears are slowly suffocating me

I know my time is coming
That's why I can't stop running
I can't let Death take me away
Because there's too much left to say

I know what it is that I need to do
To let go of the past and let go of you
I need to find a way to let go of the fears
I need to leave them behind with all of my tears

But I don't know if I can be that strong
And I don't know if I can carry on
When I'm all alone and no one's by my side
So far, I've failed every time I tried

(I'm falling)
(I'm calling)
(But you don't hear my cries)
I'm running out of time
(I'm falling)
(I'm stalling)
(Because I don't want to die)
I know that Death is stalking me
And he is just two steps behind
I'm falling
I'm falling
And I'm running out of time