I'm Afraid

I'm afraid to live, I'm afraid to die
I'm afraid to laugh, I'm afraid to cry
I'm afraid to go, I'm afraid to stay
I'm afraid I'll never find my way

I'm afraid of the air, I'm afraid of the sea
I'm afraid of happiness, afraid of misery
I'm afraid of being silent, I'm afraid to speak my mind
I'm afraid to search for answers that I may never find

I'm afraid of silence, I'm afraid of sound
I'm afraid of getting lost, afraid I'll never be found
I'm afraid of the day, I'm afraid of the night
I'm afraid of the darkness, I'm afraid of the light

I'm afraid to sleep, I'm afraid to wake
I'm afraid to give, I'm afraid to take
I'm afraid of using others, I'm afraid of getting used
I'm afraid of getting hurt, afraid of being abused

I'm afraid of a crowd, afraid of being alone
I'm afraid of going out, afraid of staying at home
I'm afraid of what I'd say if I could find my voice
I'm afraid of what I'd do if I were given a choice

I'm afraid of what I'll see in the eyes of a stranger
I'm afraid of living every day with this constant danger
I'm afraid that you won't like me if you see inside
I'm afraid you might see all the fears I try to hide

I'm afraid that you might see I'm just a scared little boy
I'm afraid that you might throw me out like a broken toy
I'm afraid that you'll get bored with me and move along
I'm afraid that everything I do will always be wrong

I'm afraid of society and all of its hate
I'm afraid we'll never learn how to cohabitate
I'm afraid that all this petty fighting will never cease
I'm afraid that planet Earth will never see lasting peace

I'm afraid there's nothing common about common sense
I'm afraid my words will never make a difference
I'm afraid that nobody will see these words I write
I'm afraid that humankind will never see the light

I'm afraid that one day all these words will disappear
I'm afraid there won't be anything to prove I was here
I'm afraid of every little thing I don't want to see
But most of all, I am just afraid of me