It's time to put the
blinders on, block the outside thoughts
Erase the painful memories
of what this life has bought
It's time to look inside myself and
start the healing from within
I can't help somebody else when
inside I'm still struggling
I
grapple with emotions that have been repressed for years
It's time
to open up the floodgates and let loose the tears
I can't hold
them anymore without falling apart
I need to release the pressure
that constricts my heart
I
struggle to comprehend that this just might be the end
I struggle
to understand why life has dealt me this hand
I struggle to face
my fears building for so many years
I struggle to fit into this
skin, I'm always struggling within
I
need to learn to let go and to leave the past behind
I cannot keep
it with me, always in the back of my mind
Because it has a way of
pushing forward all the pain
Which will only hold me back, and
there's so much for me to gain
I
don't want to die when I have never truly lived
And I don't want
to leave when I still have so much to give
I'll leave the past
behind and I'll get over what's been done
So I can concentrate on
the future and on what I'm to become
I
need to find a way to free the demons held inside
I need to find a
way to face the fears from which I hide
I need to find the courage
that's been missing all these years
I need to find the strength to
help me fight through all the tears
I
need to find my voice so I can make myself be heard
I need to find
my wings so I can be free as a bird
I need to find the meaning in
the cards I have been dealt
I need to find the peace that will
save me from myself
I
struggle to comprehend that this just might be the end
I struggle
to understand why life has dealt me this hand
I struggle to face
my fears building for so many years
I struggle to fit into this
skin, I'm always struggling within
I
need to find a way to stop the struggling within
Until I do,
there's constant pain, and my future looks grim
I need to find the
key that will unlock the chains that bind
So I can finally cast
them off and leave the painful past behind
I
need to stop focusing on the things that have gone wrong
And focus
on the future, which is where my thoughts belong
Only then do I
have a chance to break free from the fears
And finally put an end
to all the struggling and tears